Do you think you have won?

Congratulations. Our children agree with you, tell your version of the story. Do you feel like you have won? You haven't. You have caused our children damage that can never be undone. You have taken memories away from them. You may think you have done this all for them, that you are protecting them, but it is all just a big game to you. And I am no longer playing.

I'm tired of the fake kindness. The outside world image that you are doing everything for your children and hate all the conflict going on. Have you forgotten that you are the reason for this conflict? That simple adult communication would have prevented all of these issues, time after time. Yet I am the problem? You aren't even brave enough to be able to face the people you are accusing and would rather hide behind your fake personality and the people you have gathered around you who believe all of your bullshit.

You have managed to convince the children to think the same way you do about things and people, to turn lies into truth, and to turn things that didn't happen into things that did. That's not good for them, not in the long run; their trust in others and in themselves will always be doubted and unstable. They will have difficulties in relationships as they grow. They will either be easily manipulated, and their thoughts will be easily changed, or they will know how to manipulate others' thoughts, just like you.

It's funny that you deny all abuse on your part but blame so many others for abuse. You deny, deny, deny over and over again. Not once have you taken accountability for your behaviour; everything has always been twisted into my fault. I left the marriage, I took your business, I made all the bad things in your life happen. Yet... are you forgetting the affairs, the lies, the stealing, the isolation, the manipulation? Or in your mind, did none of that happen? I know you will do it again, you will have a next victim, and there will be more affairs. I just hope the next victim is stronger than I was and trusts their gut and calls you out on your bullshit and lies sooner than I did.

You may have fooled your family, your solicitor, social services, school staff and anyone else we have had to meet along the way, but I know the truth, and deep down you do too. And that's enough for me. If I have to wait until the children are adults before they learn it, then that's fine. Because if I step back now, and let you think you have won, I may lose some time with my children, but they will come back to me one day, when they realise the truth, and losing my children for a couple of months/years is a far better option than being controlled by you until they become adults.

I am stronger than you think. I am not standing for any more unknown outcomes. I am taking control of my life once and for all. This is for me.